I feel better today :)
although still miss her..
but thinking de is happy moments that we both had..
wish her luck in everything..
and find a guy that suits her..
cheers :)

ARGH!

The person that i love..
But she isnt my lover anymore..
Kinda sad..
Still missing her every day and night..
But its kinda useless now..
She wont come back to me..
I regreted for what i had done..
Fuck me..
Fuck myself..

I still love her

I still love her really..
But seems like there is no more chance to turn back anymore...
She hates me, no matter what i do, also she hate..
Call her to care her, she hate..
Haih..
I REALLY LOVE YOU DO YOU KNOW THAT!
REALLY LOVE ARH!
But i will try bah.. to let go..

十一種值得女生交往的男生

第一種，他懂得尊重你

他對你的愛比要求多，他對自己有主見，對你則不會太有主見。他尊重你作出的各種人生選擇，鼓勵你發展自己專長。現代好男人的一條重要標準是，尊重所有的女性，包括僅有一面之緣的人。

第二種，他的追求很有誠意

他不屬於你十分喜歡的異性類型，但是他追你追得很有誠意，而且你喜歡的類型，交往再多都是失敗的例子。他們有你前任男友的優點，但也沒有你前任男友的缺點，而且他有的優點，很多人都沒有。

第三種，他對你噓寒問暖

關愛體貼 他們已經很熟悉，雖然沒有了熱戀的心跳感覺，但它確實比任何人都關心你，在你苦惱的事，他永遠站在你這邊，耐心傾聽你到苦水；他記得你提過的朋友名字；你扣可是她輕輕遞上香茶......這些都無聲地傳達他真心喜歡你的資訊。

第四種，你的家人朋友欣賞他

長輩們經風曆雨閱人無數，眼睛自然比你毒。你對他很挑剔，但他卻很能夠贏得你朋友，家人的欣賞。他懂得讓每個人心情舒暢，懂得給人安全感。從性格上說，他不是一個非常易變的人，不會讓人覺得很難把握和相處。

第五種， 他提很多對你有益處的要求

他對你要求很多，但是都很合情合理，而且這些要求對你有好無壞。這樣的男友是真心愛護你的。

第六種， 他胸襟開闊，寬容忍讓

兩人發生爭執，通常是他最先讓步。他懂得如何表達自己，並耐心聽你說話，如果你是對的，他能夠承認錯誤；即使你不對，他也願意原諒你。有話可以好好講，不會動不動就拉下臉來，送你一臉的表情暴力。也不會為一點小事發脾氣或賭氣，自虐虐人。

第七種，他喜歡小動物，善待你的寵物

通常這樣的人都有一顆愛心。你可以從他對待寵物的方式瞭解他的待人接物。對動物有愛心的男人，也一定會照顧好自己的家人和伴侶。而一個會在路上踢打流浪貓狗的男人，都有暴虐的天性。

第八種，他有自己的愛好，有運動的習慣

有某種運動愛好的男子，較容易找到情緒的出口，不會沒事找事的折磨你，和一個心中有熱情的男人在一起時，日子就會充滿樂趣。一個能在生活中找到自己愛好的那人一定會給人生機勃勃的感覺。

第九種， 他對感情無怨無悔

一個男人一輩子註定會有多少次戀愛，他在不斷的實踐中獲得經驗讓自己完善起來。“專一”的定義並非是他只能一生愛一人，而是每愛一個人的時候他都一心一 意。如果他曾經有過刻骨銘心的感情經歷，並為此真心付出過，那麼至少可以證明他是個深情，敢於承諾的男人。一個願意為感情破裂分擔部分責任的男人。

第十種， 向他傾訴是安全的

他能開誠佈公地與你溝通，他懂得傾聽，知道什麼時候該說話，什麼時候該閉嘴。你不會害怕對他表達，當你和他分享自己的感受與思想時，能覺得安全。良好溝通的基礎是信任，在他面前，你確信不會因為表達內心深層想法而遭受到嘲笑或傷害。這就叫安全感。

第十一種， 不會因為朋友而忽略你

他有正常的社交圈，有彼此信賴的好朋友，也重視他們，但他不會為了朋友而把你晾在一邊。他能夠獨立思考和行動，而非唯朋友是從。並且，不需要你耳提面命，他就能清楚掌握女朋友與異性朋友的分界



我还欠缺某些条件啊，还在学习路途中呢！

珍惜

一天女孩过生日，男孩子在她生日的聚会上送了她一只可爱的毛毛熊，在各种生日礼物中，这根本算不上是礼物。 　　 女孩有些生气，也许更多的是愤怒，没想到自己男朋友这么小气，今天是她的生日，还来了这么多朋友。 　　
去年男孩在她生日的时候送了她一把很名贵的藏刀，男孩发誓说，如果有一天他背叛了女孩，女孩可以用刀划破他的胸膛。 　　
今年，两个人一直在讨论两个人的未来，这么多朋友都来为女孩庆祝生日，是男孩说在生日哪天会给女孩一个终生难忘的礼物。结果似乎一切都出乎大家的以外，当然主要是女孩！ 　　
面对女孩愤怒的眼神，男孩只是坏坏的笑，这份礼物真的让女孩终生难忘。 　　女孩在聚会中喝了很多酒，而男孩只是在旁边静静的喝着可乐。 　　
聚会结束，他们要回到自己的小家，上了三环，女生一直很愤怒，一直在埋怨，车的后排座放了很多名贵的礼物，当然还有那只毛毛熊.女生开始抱怨男孩不爱她，不珍惜他们的爱，男孩只是静静的开着车，什么也没有说，偶尔会有一丝笑在脸上。 　　
酒精在冲动的驱使下发作了.女孩吐了，男孩靠边停了车，女孩大发脾气，指责男孩给了她这样一个不愉快的生日，说了一些很伤感情的事情，男孩一直无语，只 是一只手拿着纸巾，一只手拿着矿泉水。女孩突然跑到了三环主路，男孩没有拉住她,两个人就这样在公路上拉扯着，突然,一辆飞驰的快车直奔两个人行驶过来， 男孩想都没想的扔掉了手中的东西.推开了女孩，女孩的头重重的摔到了地上，等她苏醒的时候，她已经躺在了医院，头上绑着绷带 　　
那辆飞速行驶汽车的司机，证明是酒后驾车。 　　
男孩被撞出了15米，当120到的时候，他嘴里一边涌着血一直说着“别管我，看我女朋友怎么样？” 　　
到了医院，男孩已经去了另一个世界，他最后的一句话是毛毛熊，毛毛熊在他的要求下，被医护人员带上了救护车，他在这个世界上最后的一段路，就是这只小熊一直陪着他。 　　
女孩得知男孩离去的消息，一直在哭，哭的昏过去了好几次。 　　
一个有心的护士把小熊送到了她的枕边。 　　
女孩再一次从昏厥中醒来，看着小熊，上边有着男孩的血，似乎有着男孩的体温，她紧紧的把它抱在了胸前，轻轻的抚摩着它，突然摸一件很硬的东西，女孩从小 熊的口袋里摸出了一件东西，一个戒指盒，里面有一枚漂亮的钻石戒指，女孩看到这一切，彻底崩溃了，她拼命的哭，用力的撕着自己的头发和头上的绷带，但是一 切似乎都没有意义了... 　　


女孩去了太平间，那是的男孩身上的血迹已经被擦干，他干干净净的，安详的躺在那里，嘴角还是有着一丝坏坏的笑，女孩用手抚摩着男孩的头，泪水从眼角划落，她不想哭出声，因为男孩不喜欢她哭。 　　
女孩第二天就出院了，回到了他们曾经爱的港湾。 　　
打开房门，她被眼前的一切惊呆了，房间里满是玫瑰，桌子上有一个大大的蛋糕，旁边的一个保温餐盒和一张卡片。 　　
打开餐盒里面是她最爱喝的汤。 　　
打开卡片里面写着: 　　
嫁给我，你一辈子都不会后悔，你一辈子都会感觉温暖，我会一辈子让你幸福，我会一直守侯在你的身边，我会每天叫你起床，为你做你喜欢的早餐，送你上班， 时刻惦记你，随时给你电话和信息，不让孤独的感觉伴随你一时一刻，晚上我会接你下班，为你做晚饭，晚上让你在我的怀中睡去后再静静睡去.家里事情你做主， 但是家务还是我来吧，我身体比较好点.如果应酬，我会在11点前回家，如果出差我会把你这几天食物准备好，当然还有你爱吃的零食.其实爱情就是简简单单两 个人的幸福，我们的幸福才刚刚开始，希望…… 　　
女孩再也看不下去了，她看到了房间里仿佛满使他们的欢声笑语，满是他们的蜜语甜言， 　　
往日的情景一下子，涌入了她的心头，她在自责，在懊悔，在埋怨…… 　　
想着到底是谁背叛了那曾经美好的东西 　　
曾经的幸福这个时候变的尖锐，曾经的欢笑这个时候变的灰色 　　
男孩火化的那天女孩没有去 　　
女孩一个人静静的呆在他们爱的港湾，看着他们出去旅游时的录象，轻轻的用去年生日那天男孩送他那把藏刀割开了自己的手腕…… 　　
窗头放着一张卡片： 　　
亲爱的我来了，没有你的日子我好难过 　　
是我错了，你走的这几天，我一直在回味我们在一起的日子，你的体温你的气味你的坏笑和你做的饭，你是个骗子你说过一生守护我的，没有你，一个人睡觉 好冷的，没有你做饭我肚子好饿，没有你在身边我好孤单，你慢点走，我来了，虽然你没有实现你的承诺，但是我还是真的爱你，坏蛋我来了，慢点走，在前面等 我，我来了……

恋爱中的朋友们...好好珍惜吧...也许这个世界没有那么圆满的爱，但是这个世界有着最爱你的，和你最爱的人，当最爱你的人和你最爱的人是一个人的时 候，告诉你 你，是幸福的！有些人往往是三角恋，也许你不懂我的爱，希望看完这篇日志的人珍惜眼前的一切，不要因为一点小事闹别扭...


Too all fren that read my blog,cherish the person that loves you, its not an easy thing to meet someone that u love and she/he love you also..

Kp early morning

Suppose to be on the way to Ipoh right now..
But here i am.. Sitting in front of my comp and blogging..
Everytime i feel like very disappointed and emo, i will choose to kaopeh here..
Kos there is no other way to express.. Ar.. No..
Recently there is a person.. Accomp me when i sad when i boring..
Thanks to her.. If not i would be dying by now...
But still.. Miss "her" alot.. Ytd she did it again ler..
I was like dunno how when i saw those pic.. Haix..
Promise me to take good care of yourself when you read this ok?
Just wan you to smile happy and always..
Actually i already full my heart with lots lots of love..
Wanna to pour on you when i see you today..
But plans ruin.. I dont blame you..
The love is still there ready for you..
Do you still wan it?

Again

This is number what liao?
I cant remember and i dont want to remember...
Everytime also cancel last minute..
Full my heart with hopes..
Then sekali take all away..
What she leave to me is a Sorry..
Just a sorry, nth else..
No further explanation, no nothing..

sui bian lar~

She is at singapore now..
Cant contact with her..
She say no line at SG...
Dunno when she come back..
Come back fast can mar?
Really miss you alot..

Long time no see

Its been awhile since i last update my blog..
Don't know what to write about..
How an i recently?
Hmm.. Still love her, Nv change..
Everyday still miss her, in fact is miss her more and more..
So wish can be with her...
Hold her hand, Hug her..
Haha.. Will my dream come true?
God bless..

Lazy to think about title..

So many things happened recently..
I am like falling to hell from heaven..
Everything was fine and sweet..
But in a sudden everything goes wrong..
I am tired, physically and mentally..
I just hope everything can be solve between us..
Hope can go back to the sweet sweet and happy day..
My heart will nv change..
Hope u will read this..

是时候了吧。。

原来她终究忘不了她的前度男友。。
我说要去找找她，就用很累啦什么什么的来推唐。。
可能是我笨。。
我不知道要怎样了。。
明天打个电话给她，再决定吧。。
不过我在怀疑。。
她会接我电话吗？

different

Things wont be the same i think..
Its hard to be like the past already..
How i wish time can go back then i can correct my decision..
To change the things..
But time wont allow me to do that..
It keeps moving and moving..
I regreted on some of my decision..
Kinda foolish..
Kinda stupid..
My heart still same..
I know she does as well..
God bless :)

1 more day

only got one more day b4 she starts school..
after that she will got no time le..
how to contact her ne..
how to keep in touch ne..
haih..
think of it also no mood..

Random..

Erk..
Want to see her so badly..
haha..
Me gonna KI SIAO liao..
LOL...

AGain title?

Sorry for Making u cry again..
I dont know that u will cry after u know i cry..
If i know, then i wouldnt cry...
Just want you to be happy always..

或许我应该把自己的情绪隐藏起来？
看到她为了我的伤心而哭泣．．
心就像被剑插了千刀般．．
好疼．．

Why do i always have to think bout title?

These few days i talk to her on phone for kinda long..
Makes me really happy..
We talk alot..
We know each other more than ever le...
This makes me feel kinda good..
Next week going ipoh find her..
really wanted to see her..
But scare when she see me she will disappointed..
But still..
I will go..
Kos i really miss her...

sorry.. really sorry...

Sorry for everthing i have done dear..
U got nth wrong..
Problem is at me..
So dun blame yourself le ok?
Just want you to be happy always..
I love you..
Sorry...

I am a Human after all...

She just said something that hurt me deeply..
Did she realize it?
I tried to ignore what she said..
But..
Yeah like what my title says..
I am just a normal human..
I will feel sad and will hurt by harsh words..
Dont think today will be a good day for me..
After smoke then go sleep le..

KNNBCCB

someone name S**N in Garena today..
make me damn fucking piss..
i just say he like to play with pubs...
then he go and ki siao say if i say one mroe time pub then he will kick me..
puki then i havent say yet he go kick liao..
after that somemore wanna scold me cant take joke...
KNN.. si childish pig..
if its a joke tell b4 it..
after u kick liao only say its a joke la wat la..
KP la..
Lastly i would like to give him this o0o..

Dun worry :)

You dun have to worry..
I will give u time..
How long also i will wait..
I understand tat kind of feeling..
I had gone through it also..
ganbateh :)
i will be by your side when you need me..
Anytime...

Know le

recently read her blog also saw she say she miss someone..
At first i thought it's me..
But now i know i wrong le..
It wasnt me..

whatever title la..

She dowan me find her..
But i miss her..
Holding my phone wanna sms her..
But i dun dare..
Kos i scare she angry..
But how long would it be..
I still waiting for Her..

Worth..

5am, maybe it's just a meaningless time for u all because most probably u guys are still on bed by this time..
But for me, it is a very important moment of a day..
She wakes up daily at 5am, she online at 5am...
What to do with me?
Well i just wait her to wake up daily at 5am..
Then i chat wit her, webcam with her..
This is the only chance in a day i can chat with her and webcam with her to see whether she is ok anot, happy anot and so on..
I can't ask for more, just a short moment for me to chat and cam with her will do for me..
its sat and sunday, i will be working and she is not going to school..
So no 5am date for me..
Will miss her..

KTV day

Today i went neway with my best buddies...
12pm when Chuan Yang call me..
"Hello u can come down edy, i reach ur house liao." he said..
"HAR! I HAVENT BATH WAN LEHS! WAIT ME AWHILE I VERY FAST DONE!" actually is i havent wake up when he call me LOL..
then i fast fast go bath and go down wait him..
then need to go and fetch ken, got short way we dunno use, then we both gong gong go use the long way, LOL again...
after that we sing from 1pm to 7pm haha not bad sial, all sing till like damn "song"..


Again... Missing her when i was singing..
How i wish she is here and then i can sing songs for her..
Although my singing not nice, but i still hope i can sing for her..
It's good and happy that we can sing for our love one isn't it?
When can the day come?
I still waiting..

Boring day...

Working as usual today, 6pm to 10pm..
Super sianz day, i only served 3 customer during these 4 hours, and non of them buy WTF!
As usual.. Miss her when working..
No suprise bahs.. no matter whenever and whatever i doing i also miss her wan..
Don't know she got read this blog anot..
I MISS U AR!

Today..

Slept at 7am LOL, then 10.30am wake up liao kos need to meet up with my form6 Buddies..
Reach OneU at 11.20 then go newey sing sing sing till 2pm..
Movie time after that.. Demon and Angel... What a movie, fantastic!
But today i cant concentrate on what i did..
When sing K will think of her..
When watch movie will think of her...
I REALLY miss her!
But i know.. there is something that just wont fall to me..
She is such a great girl...
While i am just a super ordinary guy..
and luck is liddat...
Good things nv happens on me...

EmoIng...

Today suppose to be a day that i spend with the one i love..
But things change and hard to predict...
Now i am alone at home missing her..
Emo alone..
I hope tat she will be ok, though i know it is hard..

Feel guilty...

Make her sad yesterday,but thats not what i want to do...
What i want to do is just chit chat with her about normal thing..
but i dunno why in a sudden i go talk about those sad things..
FARK MYSELF!
Fucking hate myself now..
Now i dun dare find her le..
I dowan to bring anymore trouble to her..
Maybe after awhile only find her back bahs...
But when will it be？

Disappointed

Again and again..
Hopes given and taken away..
3rd time liao i guess...
so yeah... :)
I change my working time...
everything i changed just for the day..
and now it will nv come..
i just dunno how...
speechless...

Waiting...

It's 2.38am.. waiting 5am to wake her up..
haha its kinda enjoy to wake her up u know..
feel like at least there is something i can do for her..
Tired? Not tired at all..
when listen to her voice in phone tat makes me feel happy..
Siao kia? no i feel tat it is worth it, its worth to wait whole night and can listen to her voice...
talk to her seems like something i enjoy the most now..
Miss her alot, hope she knows how much i miss her...

HAIZ..

She said she called me tat name mistakenly..
I thought..
Nvm..
Will give her the best 2 days in her lifes..
I'll love her as much as i can in these 2 days..
No regrets..

Tio ignore

Whenever she online on msn, sure i will go and chat with her...
But i always kena ignore wan..
happy happy go chat tio pour cold water @@
Maybe she dun like to talk to me?
Dunno lehs..

I miss her!

She is just like my angel..
She brought colour to my life..
She brings smiles and tears to my life..
Everytime when listen her voice in phone..
My heart will feel peace and that gives me energy to continue on everything that i wanna do..
Still can remember the first day i together with her was 15th of april..
I won't forget this day..
She asked for break up 2 days ago..
i don't want to but i got no choice..
Because i cant force her to be with me if she don;t want to..
But my heart is still hers..
Just wanna tell her..
You can come back anytime..
forever there will be a place in my heart that reserve for you..
i love you..

Moody days

I have been moody this few days..
I dunno why..
Just no mood, emo ing.. even now..
Tonight gonna go to zhong xian's bday party..
I hope tat will help abit..
I dun wanna to be so emo...
tat makes me suck in everything..
game and everything..
Hope i will be happy back..
Be back the real me...

My dad ( LOL wat a joke)

it's 4.30am now..
My mum is crying in her room..
Why?
Bkos of my useless dad..
Today again he come home late,its like 10 minutes ago he reach home?
My mum was so worry about him, worry him accident or etc..
But my dad nv care, he nv bother about my mum anymore..
He is been like tat for 2 years edy..
Everyday drink till late late at those Karaoke with China women..
Hug them( and he tell my mum that he anggap thos china women as mum WTF is tat?)
I feel like go inside my mum room and whack my dad now..
A guy that make a girl cry will nv be a true man..
Somemore tat girl is a girl tat he love..
Well.. this man cant be safe..
We tried.. And yet we fail...
So god bless him bah...
I can see his future will got no son or anybody to care him..
BB to this man..

my day today..

My bday today..
WEEEEE....
but seems normal..
don't feel any excite..
wanted to sms somebody but..
typed the msg and delete and type again and delete again..
and the msg nv send out..
LOL...
and i think of my mum..
she must be very very pain when she bringme to this world 22 years ago..
must sayang her more..
so i go and buy her famous amos..
hope she like it ^^...

How long ago is the last time i write a thing in my blog?
Oh.. a month ago... i've been super lazy to blog...
Haha... maybe is because there is nth special to write about?
everyday seems to be the same for me..
Wake up> go college> go home rest awhile> go work> go home sleep
this thing keeps repeating every single day...
for saturday and sunday is even worst, work for the whole day..
Argh... when can i end this kind of shit life..

可悲,可恨..

http://cforum3.cari.com.my/viewthread.php?tid=1467165&extra=page%3D1&page=1

刚才看了这个帖子,发觉到我们的政府医院实在是有太多太多的问题...
把病人当白老鼠试新药(直接把病人提前送到天国去)..
ER的服务态度懒散(要知道ER紧急急救的地方,拖不得的)..
还有其他很多很多,真的很害怕万一有一天需要去政府医院的是我们自己或者是亲人的话,会怎样..
这帖子里面有一句我很赞同, "穷人最宝贵是健康"..
我们付不起私人医院高昂的费用,所以就只好尽量不生病不出问题咯..
但是要是万一出了问题,真的是不知道怎么办才好..

今天

今天,我又再次遇到她
同样的地点,同样的方式..
但这次不同的是,我终于鼓起勇气去打破沉默..
跟她简单的聊了几句..
得知她将在下个月注册结婚(早就知道的啦-.-)
很高兴能够和她再次说话..
还以为从此都没有机会成为朋友的说,哈哈..
再来,我工作地点有个可爱的女生不要做了咯..
伤心下,本来还以为有机会的,哈哈(发梦都没那样早)..
mmm....还有什么呢?
也不知道还有什么要说..
每天的生活都是那么的平凡,无聊..
但是也好吧,神给我这样的生活总有他的目的..